MY OBSESSION WITH CHASE GRAYSON
***If you haven't read Taking Chances or Stealing Harper don't read this. It contains a ridiculous amount of spoilers***
Here's something you might not know about me. I have a ridiculously obsessive personality. I obsess over stupid things I've done. I obsess over things that happen in my class, I obsess over my kids and most of all, I obsess over books and characters in books (well I obsess over a lot more stuff, but you get the point).
My love for Chase Grayson should come as no surprise to anyone. I love bad boys. I don't want to change them, I don't want to fix them. I like them naughty. Admittedly, at first, I was not in love with Chase Grayson. I thought he was a skank. I obviously don't think that anymore.
Waiting impatiently for June 9th to get my copy of Trusting Liam has reenergized my Chase obsession. So I started thinking back to how this particular obsession began. After around the millionth time of reading the back cover of Taking Chances at my local Target, I decided I "needed" to read it. So I tossed it in my cart and went on my way. For some reason (I can't remember what) I didn't read it right away.
Strangely enough, around the same time, I came across Stealing Harper. I realized the same characters were in both books. Not realizing what I was doing, I read Stealing Harper first. I was completely new to this genre of book and author and didn't think the order I read them would matter.
Stealing Harper is Chase Grayson's point of view of the love triangle made up of him, Harper and Brandon. In Stealing Harper, Chase goes from being a gross, womanizing, manwhore, to a completely changed person. And he did it all for Harper. He wanted to become someone who was worthy of her and good Lord did he ever accomplish that task.
I spent so much of that book with a lump in my chest because my feels for Chase were out of control. Everything he did for Harper made me love him even more. The ring at Christmas, the tattoo he did for Harper, the drawings.....I just can't. I'm literally tearing up as I think about it.
Anyway, the weekend that he shared with Harper, the way he loved her, when he held her in the shower. It was like he knew it was going to be over. I don't think I've ever seen a love like the love Chase had for Harper. So all her indecision and not loving Chase the way she should made me not like her a whole lot.
I wonder, did she just stay with Chase for Gummy Bear? Did she really love him? Clearly, these are the thoughts of an obsessive mind because...well...they're not real. But the way Molly McAdams wrote them, they seem very real.
When Chase Grayson died in that accident, I had one of the ugliest cries of my life. I don't really cry often, but I remember sobbing like a baby at the loss of Chase Grayson.
And now I must confess. Since I read the books in the wrong order, I knew I couldn't live through Chase dying again and *whispers embarrassedly* I never had the courage to read Taking Chances. I look at it everyday, since it's on top of my to be read pile of books. I'm not sure I'll ever be over Chase Grayson, weird, right?
But on June 9th I get to meet his son Liam and I can't wait. That being said, Chase Grayson will ALWAYS be one of my top book boyfriends. Which leads me to my bucket list. I will one day meet Molly McAdams to talk to her about Chase and I will someday own a ring like the one Chase made for Harper.
I know there are loads of #teambrandon fans out there...but I will forever be #teamchase.